I know that getting back with Chris is very likely to be a failure, which scares me. I don't know why he always comes back, I also don't know why I always take him back... I guess it is because there is always a part of me that says 'this time it will be different'. He is the only man to ever truly make me, happy, being with him is amazing during that good times and horrible during the bad. I want to trust him again, but it is difficult knowing that he hasn't been the most faithful boyfriend. I hate bringing him around beautiful women, it intimidates me. Then again it has been a year since the last time we were together, people can change. He seems to know what he wants now and I'm pretty sure that I'm it. He is my constant failable risk, the risk that I'm always willing to take. Hope.